falling back
i have a tendency to fall back into comfortable spots.
couches.
cds.
hammocks.
macaroni and cheese.
the above mentioned arent too harmful (of course obsessive Jason Mraz listening can convince me to do things like make a t-shirt that says "All I want for Christmas is Jason Mraz") but not too harmful.
but I am struggling here.
dying to take a rest in a relationship that hurt me quite profoundly. to the core. but it is comfortable and I miss it. not the bad parts, but the good parts.
I am having a hard time telling myself no. sometimes I even pursue the relationship. and sometimes I back off completely when it is offering itself to me.
I really am scared. I dont want to fall back. Wow.
earlier I had said yes to it, but later corrected myself with a text and said no.
man I love text messaging. non confontational communication at its best.
posted by Barbi @ 12:43 PM
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2 Comments:
Thanks for your honesty, I enjoy reading your stuff, and thanks for posting on mine. I am trying to get in the habit of writing more often, but I generally only do it when I am experiencing some kind of writer's inspiration (which doesn't happen all that often). It's my nature to give advice, but you don't need it, so I will keep my mouth shut and just tell you I liked hearing where you are at- I identify with it. We all have old habits we keep falling into that we hate, yet have something attractive that draws us back. Thanks for sharing yours...
Curt
I love you and I know that everything will be alright. You are a strong, beautiful woman of God. He has your back as well as your friends.
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