is this heavy or what...what?

i have always had a tendency to over analyze. so when something causes my heart to be heavy i question whether it is actually true. i am rereading Waking the Dead, a book about reviving your heart, it believes that your soul truly does go hand in hand with your heart. it believes your heart has been deceived and shut out from experiencing life. yep. this is my third time to read the book. just thought it was appropriate seeing that my heart is pretty heavy right now.

which got me thinking. is my heart really heavy. there is a myth that centers around the idea that when you die your body loses 21 grams instantly, i can show you the medical proof (it is not consistent in every case but really should it be?) this doctor suggests that your soul actually has weight and that when you die it leaves your body and voila 21 grams lighter. there is a movie about it called 21 grams.

so when i first heard about this, things started happening in my head and moreso in my heart. my soul has weight and when it is upset i probably tend to feel its burden more. if my soul resides in my heart, and my soul is stirred within me, then blood more than likely will be pumping harder causing my heart to be working harder and alas it quite possibly will feel...heavy.

because it does. feel heavy i mean. and i dont know the answer to alleviate the heaviness except psalm 145:14-19...let me share.

The LORD sustains all who fall and raises up all who are bowed down. The eyes of all look to You, and You give them their food in due time. You open Your hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing. The LORD is righteous in all His ways and kind in all His deeds. The LORD is near to all who call upon Him, to all who call upon Him in truth. He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him; He will also hear their cry and will save them.


sweet jesus. give me my food in due time. heal my heavy heart.